October92008
THE PRE-ORDERS are signed with notes inside- plus extra mini book inside-
just an f.y.i.
i will be sure and try and leave you fun stuff in your pre-ordered books. I spend the holidays, and the winter months alone usually (not this year) but regardless, i spend them out of country (always if possible) and I can think of nothing sweeter than making sure if you spent the money, which i understand you are ALL WORKING YOUR ASS OFF FOR with VERY LITTLE IN RETURN IN PUBLIC SERVICES RETURNED that I will try and pass along as much figurative sunshine in there as I can.
It’s a long heavy book and I recommend people having a hard time sticking to the first and last chapters as 2, 3 and 4 are, how do I say this, from the trenches, from the moments where if I hadn’t had that type-writer I would have had to have gone into someplace where they take care of people who have broken souls.
we all have them.
I learned to forgive that and see that as an indication that everybody can still feel so much and forgive that same thing. It is very human to be so upset and so in love and then so lost.
and the moment, it is infinity. we are here forever in our lives, if for only slowing that second down, and feeling the million tiny years a breath would take if you could make yourself so small as to be a speck of dust on a comet’s tail. and i was.
anyway,
i know things are starting to look scary on t.v. ( i got to stay at a luxury Holiday Inn last night and I saw those people, those people who want to run the country (they don’t- the corporations who fund them do, because they answer to that campaign money) and I saw all that talk ( it’s all talk- nobody can FIX “good” or “evil” as in, nobody can build a lamp and light up the dark space of the universe, or slow down a black hole- which, is probably responsible for our relative time/space being so close- and our “local group” moving in patterns which revolve in a circle and do not destroy us.
the balance. light and dark, night and day, these are immovable.
trust.
go with the kindness, even if it means exposing an awful thing. it too is a lesson and does not have to be repeated if observed. like trying to date me (ha)…. srsly
be brave- my grandparents lived through the Great Depression and this is not that and they managed and MY WORD they were so in love. They ate love for lunch. They had enough left-overs that I go to that refrigerator in my mind and it nourishes me even now at 33, enough so that I can manage to do things like write a book or some days just keep the faith. faith meaning- this means something that I do not understand yet and I should stay quiet and listen and look and create what I can about what I find out. its rather innocent and I am not out-sourcing.
But this fallout/ scare-tactic madness- This is fallout from people getting rich- realizing that if they could separate us all by thinking there were TWO options when voting, and that we were “safe” at home and at the chain-market’s where they buy all the goods from other countries that we would all become CONSUMERS- (zombies) and we would be idle.
fuck that.
i am not going to stop anything i am doing. i hope you don’t either.
keep the faith.
and keep moving.
darkness follows light-
light follows always
times infinity
the paragraph about his grandparents actually made me cry.
